Do you ever feel like giving up?
I do. More often than I'd like to admit.
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I know I seem all cheerful and positive, but I often struggle with thoughts of packing it all in.
Just when I think I've made progress, I have to start over again…. and again and again. I want to throw up my hands and say, ‘I can't do this anymore!'
It can feel like one step forward and three steps back. It's not true, but it feels like it.
Some days it's just for a brief moment and I move on. Other days it can drag on longer.
What keeps me going forward?
I imagine what it would be like if I gave up.
Sure, at first it seems great.
I imagine how I wouldn't have to worry about all of the money I'm spending on training and learning and building this thing no one's ever done before that I'm not even sure is ever going to work.
I imagine the relief of no more brain overload and wondering how I'm going to figure out this skill or that skill.
I imagine the relief of not working so many hours on my passion and of just curling up on the couch and reading a good book instead.
But then… I think about the alternative.
What would I do instead?
Do I really want to get to the end of my life and not have done what I knew I was supposed to do?
This isn't about guilt or shame. There's no condemnation. I don't think when I get to Heaven, my Heavenly Dad is going to be disappointed with me. I'm sure He will look at me with eyes of love simply because I'm His daughter.
What if I didn't do all I knew I could do? What a waste for me… and for the world.
And so, I pick myself back up and I keep moving forward.
And maybe sometimes it really is one step forward and three steps back.
But I know someday it will be three steps forward and one step back. And so I keep moving forward. And I hope you do too.
I am a CreativeWorldChanger. You are too!